Monday, January 28, 2008 - :

why cant i just like not love someone?

why always my heart rule my head, and now with my head trying to deny the fact that i like someone, and in the end its hurting my heart. not that i wanna say that i like her to her but its like, i dont think its the right time, it may be a crush, i dunno, but continously denial is painful.

its like i been so alone, for 3 years so already, after i broke up with my ex on 11 feb 05. now like everytime i see a couple, i kinda get jealous, envy, and wish sometimes i would have a gf.

not like i sound despo but try being alone. try that, and u will know. try it and what u got is only ur com, ur psp, ur own stuffs etc to use. try to be just part of the background, not in a story. try that.

though sometimes i keep thinking i aint human, but still feelings are there. now i am trying to stop having feelings, emotionless, so i cant be sad.

oh well.

hais.

gtsfrost blogged at Monday, January 28, 2008